Still feeling effects of jet-lag

Wow, 4 days later Steve & I both can't seem to get our sleeping schedules quite right. Our agency director suggested melatonin to help with the jet-lag so I think I'm going to give it a try. For the second trip, I need to feel better than this, and have more energy as I'll hopefully be caring for a toddler.

My son got a pretty good injury yesterday. He was fighting was an imaginary oppenent and told me he was diving after his "sidekick". I'm guess he was trying to dive between the dining room table and chair.....well, he hit smack into the table with his front teeth! He left two pretty deep marks into the table from his teeth, as well as a gouge across where they must have scraped across the side of the table after the initial bite. OUCH! I'm sooooo thankful his teeth seem to be OK, although I keep checking because they could still be damaged, but he has a major fat upper lip as well as a slight black eye as the side of his eye caught the table as well. I'll admit he has a funky monkey look about him right now and I'm glad Kindergarden starts a week from Monday and not this Monday like my step-daughter's school.

I'll admit as I mail off the final agency pymt and country fees that panic is rising in me that this adoption will fall apart and the precious little girl who has my heart will be whisked away from me by a Russian family. And I know we could not go thru this again. After our first trip and meeting Miss A, I know all our chips are in and either this dream happens or its the end. Please hope I find the strength to stay positive and strong.

So, I plug away with paperwork and take little steps towards cleaning out what will be her room (the closet is going to be a challege.....not sure exactly where to find new homes for the accumilated "stuff") Our local Moms Club is having a yard sale tomorrow and I made a pretty good contribution. Do I dare start buying furniture? Maybe I'll start with the curtains.