Wish I had more good news

But I don't. I guess even though we received her citizenship, there a bit more to be processed regarding her citizenship so papers still can't be submitted to the courts yet. I wish communication with our Russian staff was better and I knew more of what we can expect next, but its not and I'm frustrated and sad. I received updated information on our little miss, as well as some updated pictures. It was not all that I had hoped for. This wait has been hard on us, and I think it hasn't been great on her either. As a mother you naturally want to do everything you can for your child as quickly as possible. The thought that your child's basic needs aren't being met is so painful. I knew this process would be hard, but honestly I had no idea the extent of it. I know thankfully most families do not have the same difficulties that we are having, and most children stay a much shorter amount of time in a baby home. Of course I find myself wanting to blame someone......our agency, Russia, the baby home, the government......but again as a mother none of that really matters.....I just need to keep doing whatever I can to get her home with us as quickly as possible, and do whatever I can once she's home.

I had the most horrible dream last night. Obviously this is really getting to me. Please hope we hear more good news very soon.

WE HAVE CITIZENSHIP!!!!

Happy Happy Day!!! The sun is shining and doing a BIG OL' happy dance!!! Now things can move forward. Sooo, I will now schedule Steve & I for our third dossier#2 medicals, hope our FBI clearances come soon, and pray the judge doesn't ask for a pile of additional documents.

Thats all I know for now. WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

The smile that keeps me going

Here's the sweetest smile that greets me every morning, that keeps me fighting, that I painfully miss everyday, and that I'm hoping hasn't disappeared during these long months and months. I just can't help but think if this smile was attached to all her paperwork that they would see she's not just paperwork but a little girl who needs a family and her family needs her!! This was on our second visit and I really don't even know what got her laughing but I was able to capture some nice big belly laughs and smiles that are just completely precious.

Of course these smiles get me thru the days too, how could they not?? Can't you just picture our little miss playing with them as well, all smiles, bringing so much happiess to this momma's heart....?

I'm loving Corky's Coats

OK, so it probably won't fit her for this winter....heck, we may not even make it back to Russia during the winter! But it will be waiting for her for next winter and I just couldn't help myself, it is so sweet. Shopping for my kids is just so much more fun than shopping for myself. Although I better watch it......I'm going to need to shop for me a new wardrobe if I keep consoling myself during this wait with chocolate!!

Nothing like a fellow blogger

to brighten your day and outlook! Thank you, Amy....it was a wonderful visit. It just truly helps to know we're not alone in this gruelling process. Next time we'll do better with the location, perhaps really pamper ourselves! What a lucky little girl precious Cupcake is to be getting such a terrific mommy. I feel so grateful that I get to share this miraculous journey with such amazing people.