Wish I had more good news

But I don't. I guess even though we received her citizenship, there a bit more to be processed regarding her citizenship so papers still can't be submitted to the courts yet. I wish communication with our Russian staff was better and I knew more of what we can expect next, but its not and I'm frustrated and sad. I received updated information on our little miss, as well as some updated pictures. It was not all that I had hoped for. This wait has been hard on us, and I think it hasn't been great on her either. As a mother you naturally want to do everything you can for your child as quickly as possible. The thought that your child's basic needs aren't being met is so painful. I knew this process would be hard, but honestly I had no idea the extent of it. I know thankfully most families do not have the same difficulties that we are having, and most children stay a much shorter amount of time in a baby home. Of course I find myself wanting to blame someone......our agency, Russia, the baby home, the government......but again as a mother none of that really matters.....I just need to keep doing whatever I can to get her home with us as quickly as possible, and do whatever I can once she's home.

I had the most horrible dream last night. Obviously this is really getting to me. Please hope we hear more good news very soon.